I have a new name.

Yes thakns to you all I learned a new word.  I had to google it to find out what it meant, but none the less I like it. So i am KVECHTING, that makes me a KVECHTER. Yes a whinner, but I serve the wine, why do you not bring the cheese and crackers to the table?

Finally some of you let loose with what bothers you and I am glad, that is waht my blog is about, not only my journey and pain straight out, but you response straight out and back. No holds barred here. Do not be afraid of hurting my feelings with what you say, because I surely have no problem fighting back if it is called for.

I just want the real story about those of us in this World of Ours, told. Not by "experts", "researchers", yes "caregivers", etc. But by US!!! Yes you suffer the pains of helping us and watching us waste away to mere shadows of a one time person. Too many of those in my world are too afraid to say anything or are in denial and just do not want to tell anything.  Well we SUFFER greatly, we die many times, each day we die a little more, we forget who people are includdding our selves. I do not think you can really understand the anger and frustration of this. Sitting down to eat and you forgt how to use the fork or even what the fuck you are doing at the table. My own wife scares the shit out of me at time when she comes up to me, because at that moment, I have no idea who she it or what the hell she is doing in my house.

We do not go out much, I am afraid to leave my house or yards, because I may not return here, this is my safe place for me.

Well you all be good to yourselves.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!!
joe

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About the parboiling

First of all let me tell everyone that I was totally against him going on the roof. I have been doing the roof projects for a long time now and I could not stop him. I asked him why he felt he needed to do it and the response was He needed to prove to himself that he was still able to do things like this. So we put on his tennis shoes for better grip and tucked in his pants legs and boy did he look ducky. And he did not go up very high just a couple of feet and as the water came down the roof he remembered that the roof was warm and so was his behind. I guess what the point of all this is, is even though they have this coming on they want to feel useful around the house and that they need to feel wanted and needed. Joe still does things around the house. He has his daily routine, feed the fish, bird and take out the recyclable stuff piled up on the counter. He has taken over doing the towels once a week and heaven help us if we interfere. (He takes them out of the dryer and puts them on so he can warm up). So if your loved one or patient can do some chores around the house let them as long as they do not pose a danger to themselves or others. I am sure there are some things they can do such as feeding animals or folding laundry. You will figure it out. But the roof is probably a bad idea. Joe won't be going up there again.

Take care

Lynn

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