I have a new name.

Yes thakns to you all I learned a new word.  I had to google it to find out what it meant, but none the less I like it. So i am KVECHTING, that makes me a KVECHTER. Yes a whinner, but I serve the wine, why do you not bring the cheese and crackers to the table?

Finally some of you let loose with what bothers you and I am glad, that is waht my blog is about, not only my journey and pain straight out, but you response straight out and back. No holds barred here. Do not be afraid of hurting my feelings with what you say, because I surely have no problem fighting back if it is called for.

I just want the real story about those of us in this World of Ours, told. Not by "experts", "researchers", yes "caregivers", etc. But by US!!! Yes you suffer the pains of helping us and watching us waste away to mere shadows of a one time person. Too many of those in my world are too afraid to say anything or are in denial and just do not want to tell anything.  Well we SUFFER greatly, we die many times, each day we die a little more, we forget who people are includdding our selves. I do not think you can really understand the anger and frustration of this. Sitting down to eat and you forgt how to use the fork or even what the fuck you are doing at the table. My own wife scares the shit out of me at time when she comes up to me, because at that moment, I have no idea who she it or what the hell she is doing in my house.

We do not go out much, I am afraid to leave my house or yards, because I may not return here, this is my safe place for me.

Well you all be good to yourselves.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!!
joe