Posting On This Blog

Only one rule to those invited to post, must be on dementia any type and you are free to be explicit. If a caregiver your thoughts, what you have learned, what you see, etc. One always has something to say even if it is I cannnot take this crap anymore.

Please check out the In Memory Of page udates. If you want a love one added, use email form on bottom, or email me at jolynn1@cox.net  I need name, birth year, date set free and a picture.

This is our home please join in. If you would like to be able to post here using above guidlines let me know? Remember abuse the priviledge and u will be cut off and so will your post. You know language is not always a criteria here, but honesty is.

I have had the honor of speakinnng to Alan Rodgers, the nut, who is climbing the 7 highest summits on each connntinent for Alzheimer's Awareness. I call him a nut because he climbs these mountains, me I fall down them. He is going to keep us in the looop. He has reached over 20 million people already through the presss coverage and talk shows he has been on.  Alzheimer's took his mother about 1½ yrs. ago, so this is his mission and is takking us with him.  May God go with you Alan.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!!!!
joe

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Me a Tyrant?

Really now, such a gentle wonderfull and forgiving person as I, a Tyrant. The truth be known I can be a little, just a little over zelous at times. Ok maybe tyranical to some degree. Lynn is mostly correct in what she has written although I am not sure if I even am with them as much as they may believe.


I feel things slipping more and more away from me. Going out has almost become a big no no with me. I do not want to leave my security. On the other hand I no longer want to be in this house. I feel like I have done here what I was suppose to and I am now to move on. It is a feeling I cannot explain, it is like a driving force that pushes me to do whatever it is that I am to do. Writting and talking about it does not change it, it is there and it is real. Before in life I did not hesitate to follow it. Now I am confused and frustrated over the feeling and lately very unhappy over things. I guess this is part of this world I live in now, no longer sure of feelings, thoughts, direction or security of where I am. All I know is that I am here stuck and not knowing when to get off the bus at the correct stop.

I wonder or should I say wander within my own mind what is taking place, why, where and how do I get around this bastard that is following me and sucking my thoughts away. Who am I today, not who I was 10 years ago I think and not even sure of yesterday. Yesterday is a strange word to me, since everything happend yesterday, not last week, years ago, but just yesterday. Family and friends around to help, yes I am lucky that way I guess, but they fuckin piss me off, I feel that they hover, whether they do or not is not the point it is how I feel and it makes me feel trapped.  Now if they didn's I probably would get angry that no one gave a dam. No fun in this brain these days.


God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
Joe

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My Husband

Well now that I have been on the guilt trip for not blogging on his site I will explain why. Even tho I am a Leo I don't do a lot of roaring. Only when it counts like protecting my family or friends. For the most part I am a real pussycat. So you wonder how in the world I managed to survive 30 years with this man. So am I. He is a tyrant when it comes to having things his way. Always has been and probably will be till the end. But he is also a very loyal and loving friend. He is my best friend. He would fight for me. Since we have started this trip with his medical problems it has not been easy. Lately he is stubborn, mean, forgetful and just not with the rest of us. I have asked him questions and then he walks away without answering them. Or he will say something about me nagging him and getting rid of wives that nag him. Nagging consists of asking him what he wants to do on any given day.
So those of you out there taking care of a spouse or loved one just remember that we do it for love because who else is going to do it. Me, I tell him I am in it for the money now. So he should probably go back to work and earn some.
It is not easy and it will only get harder. But we are in it for the long haul. For those who can't stand up to the pressure do not feel bad. This world is not for everybody and the quality of care is more important than who gives it.
Take care
Lynn

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