Showing posts with label memory. Show all posts
Showing posts with label memory. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

The Death of ?



A short story by Joseph V. Potocny

Let us go back in time as far as our minds will travel till when this war began and the battles raged on day and night for centuries.

Our setting is in times of old, set among the rolling tree lined hills and grass lands of a land known as the LAND OF DARKNESS. Through the glens ran rivers filled with fish and clear waters and lakes that sprawled across the land.  Many a village dotted the landscape with one mighty fortress in the center of all that could be seen. The villagers went about their daily business of selling goods, cleaning their shops and homes, repairing their roofs and greeting one another. In the background one could hear the noise of battle, the clashing and crushing of metal and the helpless cries of those engaged in this never ending war that seemed to have no rhyme or reason to it. Yet one could hear the roar of cheers and adulations being boosted upon the victor as the gayety of the event went on. For years the war raged with hardly a person caring who was or was not winning; only that it gave them excitement in their otherwise hum drum lives.

Then came a cold and blustery fall day, the skies were darkened and the winds swirled throughout the land. The reviewing stands were filled to over flowing with crowds of frenzied on lookers. It was difficult to see what was taking place through the dust and debris flying in the air. But yet all in attendance cheered and screamed and ate all that they could and laughed among themselves. Suddenly two hours past the rising of the sun in midday sky the clouds began to part. The massive clouds of dust seemed to clear and a quietness never before felt in the Land of Darkness could be felt. People closed their eyes, covered their mouths and ears as they gazed upon the carnage that years of battles in this war they really cared nothing about could be seen. DEATH was all about the land, where it was once green now it was scared and torn by the ravages of the war. Ones they had known for years were among the slaughtered and dismembered bodies that lay for the scavengers to feast upon.  But not to worry, they were safe in the stands and had others to talk to and while the time away.

Suddenly could be heard the thunderous ponding of the hooves of a mighty beast coming towards the field from the east.  All turned their eyes and cheered wildly and appeared a mountainous mass of a steed black as coal with what looked like the very smoke of hell coming from its nostrils. His mighty hooves gleamed in the sun and as they hit the ground one after the other a shaking and rattling of the stands could be felt by all.  The crowds went wild, when atop this mighty mount sat the Black Knight.  His dark plumage all twirl in the wind, armor black as the night and gleaming. His battle axe hanging on his side, a might mace stuck in his saddle. As he rode towards the crowd his lance stood tall in his mighty arm, with his colors of red trailing behind it.  He slowly made his way to the east end of the jousting pad and sat so tall and mighty that he seemed to block out much of what could be seen.

From the west end of the battle field a soft but mounting laughter started to be heard.  All eyes turned toward that end of the field and there they say the cause of this gaiety.  Standing there on a Roan Steed was a war torn and embattled knight. His stature was not even half that of the Black Knight.  His page even had to help him stay steady on his charge.  The crowd could hardly contain themselves as the starter slowly made his way up the tower to play his part in this drama.  As he neared the end of his climb the weather seemed to change, a chill entered the air and the skies seem to darken, by this time night was starting to fall.  The Starter reached the top of his post he showed the white cloth to the Black Knight, who dipped his lance in acknowledgement.  He then turned to the old knight and he dipped his lance toward the starter and almost dismounted.  None of the money changers would take bet on this battle; one could plainly see who the victor would be.  The starter dropped his cloth, the Black Nights mount could hardly be contained waiting for the cloth to strike the ground. 

The Cloth hit the ground the massive beast reared and roared a mighty sound and the smoke of hell came forth from his nostrils. His mighty feet hit the dirt with such a force that the earth cracked, mountains trembled and the reviewing stands did weaken. Forward charged the Black Knight with his lance lowered.  The Old Knight sat himself right and lowered his lance and started his charge. Suddenly seeing his braveness and lack of fear the jeers started to turn to cheers. They charged towards one another in the dimming light and met with such a clash as never before heard that many fell out of their seats. A cloud of thick and dark dust was swirling in the middle of the field. The sound of metal ripping, wood snapping and the cries of pain and horror could be heard. Then all went silent. No one knew what had happened. But slowly the tail and hind quarters of the Black Knights mount could be seen. Soon the knight and his entire mount were standing tall at their starting point. Where was the old knight? A light rain and breeze came up and the center of the field could be seen. There laid broken battle axes, maces, the Black Knights sword and the proud Roan Steed. But the Old Knight was not to be seen.  All were just besides themselves, how could this be? Then one cried out look. As all looked to the west end, there standing in the setting sun was the Old Knight; how he was able to stand no one could phantom a guess. But yet there he was standing, with half a shield, leaning on his sword and bloodied beyond belief the battle that had just been fought.  As the last rays of the sun cast across the field the Starter raised his hand, the Black Knight raised his shield and so did the Old Knight. Down came the starters hand and like a blur the beast from hell was racing towards the end of the field. The Black Knight lowered his lance, which was already drench with the blood of his opponent and took deadly aim. Darkness fell just as the two met once again. This time the collision had a different tone to it but still there was so much dust and in the darkness hardly a thing could be seen. Finally, after what seemed like years the moon broke through the clouds and the wind swept across the field once more, to reveal the finality of this battle.

There at the west end to the amazement of all, laid both the Black Knight his charge and the Old Knight.  Pages ran to the scene to see what was and signaled to all that both were dead.  The crowd demanded the helmet of the Black Knight be removed so they could see who this valiant warrior of so many battles and years was. However his face was so deformed and twisted and hair all in knots that no one could tell who he was or where came from. The Old Knights page removed his face plate to reveal his master, instead of a face a spiral plume of bluish white smoke ascended to the heavens. As is raced upward a great sound could be heard and then a burst of silver, gold and white flakes fell towards the earth. All could hear the words clearly, I Am Free, finally.  The flakes fell across the entire battle field and all that laid there was consumed as if it never was.

All looked to where the Black Knight and his companion had laid upon the field.  A twisting wind blew across the spot and there where they had lain was written: My Name Was Alzheimer’s.  The crowd now knew what they had not done, but one lone soul sacrificed their life to do.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Alzheimer's Time Line -- New Page

Please note the new page added to my blog - Alzheimer's Time Line. This info is from Fedelta Care Solutions. Hold many facts and figures. I hope you find it useful. While there check out their other resources.


God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

A week gone & Happy 4th to All.

I am glad that last week has past, the crashing out of bed, 8.5 hours at the hospital on sunday. Monday got to relax, the tuesday spent  2 hours iat the dentist, proded and poked and xrayed and open and shut measure this and that, looking into a apnea device for my mouht the mask and i do not get along at all. Then wednesday, good old phychiatrist, they are so non commital and say keep doing what you doing, well i do not want to. Dieing sucks, not knowing what day it is anymore sucks, forgetting where the day went sucks, life sucks so there. Then spent hour and a half at the eye doctors, how wonderful, pull this lid then that one blind me with this light agnd then the next put drops is to measure pressure i guess, that process was met with a bit of resistence, you do not touch my eyes. Then we put all types of drops in them so I can no longer see shit and they take pictures of them. Finally the Doctor arrives and he fuckin blinds me with lights. We discuss a cataract that is in the left eye, he suggested to leave it for now and not operate, smartest thing i heard all week.  But need new glasses.

This week comes and somehow some way a sctrewed up my back and need my brace to move and my scooter to get atround. I know it ends sometime, but when is that time. i forgot what i was going to say.
Oh well take care.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours - Especially OUR TROOPS.
joe

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Dear Carolyn,

Thank you for your comment regargding your mother. You are probably right she has no idea she is repeating herself, I don't. Just smile and listen and let her know you love her. DO NOT ARGUE WITH A PERSON WITH DEMENTIA, you loose everytime. We are always right, we know we are right and you are squirelly get use to it, and let it roll off your back. In past posts if you care to read I believe we have covered somethings not to do with us.

Before I forget welcome to our family. You are not alone, this family is World wide so plenty of help and resources listed on the side. Come back and let us know, just how crazy mom has driven you. I am not making light just the facts and know here you have support.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!!!
joe

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

5 Awesome Smartphone Apps That Every Caregiver Needs


as always we do not promote or recommend any products, you are the ultimate decision maker in you purchases. we try to bring things to aide and possibly be of use to you.

Sure, your smart phone might be a great way to fling disgruntled birds at thieving swine, but it can also be just as useful in helping you care for an elderly parent or a special needs child. Right now, more than three in ten households report that at least one person has served as an unpaid caregiver. Taking this into account, developers have begun to release a wide variety of apps that can make providing care much easier. From scheduling medications to tracking lost loved ones, there’s almost no limit to what these programs can do. So if you have a dependent at home, you should definitely consider downloading these 5 apps.
1)    Med Helper - $3.99. Med Helper provides caregivers with the most comprehensive medication scheduling suite on the market. Available for the Android and iPhone, the app tracks medication, treatment and appointment schedules for your loved one. In addition to alerting you when it’s time to give a patient their pills, Med Helper Pro also tracks your prescription inventory and lets you know when it’s time to get a refill. It even creates a log of past doses that you can export and show to your healthcare professionals. If providing medication is part of your daily routine, this is one app that you need to get.
2)    ICE - $3.99. ICE, by development firm Appventive, is a high-tech “In Case of Emergency” app. It functions just like the diabetic bracelets that people use to inform medical workers about their condition, but the app can convey very detailed information. With just one click, EMT staff or other medical professionals will know the person's conditions, emergency contact numbers and insurance information. You can include phone numbers for doctors, information about allergic reactions and special instructions. Though the app is currently exclusive to the Android operating system, look for it to expand to the iPhone soon.
3)    Pain Care – Free. When you're sitting in the doctor's office, it can be difficult to remember every single thing you wanted to say about how you've been since your last visit. Pain Care, the winner of the “Project HealthDesign,” says it for you. The app, which is available for free on Android, Blackberry and iPhone, is a kind of pain management journal. A pain slider allows patients to rate their level of pain as well as its duration, location, triggers and more. In-depth information like this gives your doctor a clear picture of your condition over time.
4)    GPS Tracking Pro – Free. Caring for a family member who is suffering from Alzheimer’s or dementia can be difficult, especially when they start losing track of their surroundings. A simple walk alone can quickly turn into an emergency if your parent or grandparent forgets how to get back home. The GPS Tracking Pro app will allow your family member to retain their independence by keeping tabs on their location 24 hours a day. Just load the free app onto their Android or iPhone, and you'll be able to track their location from your phone or computer.
5)    Brainwave Tuner - $2.99. Brainwave Tuner can be a useful app for those who suffer from fits, migraines, insomnia and other stressful conditions. Binaural acoustic therapy aims to help people achieve a more relaxed state of mind by coaxing brainwaves to entrain with a gently pulsing audio source. Brainwave Tuner projects special ambient sounds through headphones to help relieve pain and induce sleep. The app is currently available for iPhone and Android phones.
Being a caregiver isn't easy, but these apps can make looking after a loved one with special needs much less trying than it used to be. Apps like these turn your smartphone into an emergency device, a medication scheduler or an acoustic therapy device at the touch of a button, and as technology continues to advance, these apps will only become more helpful. So check out your operating system’s app store today and download a few that you think might be useful in providing care for your family or loved ones. For such a small price, they can be a big help. 

hope you enjoy this and find some useful inforation. You can tell i did not write this, you can read it.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Thursday, May 17, 2012

The Passageway to my mind?

Climb aboard if you dare, the trip is wild


God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Hello

just a note to say i am still here.  my days are shorter with sleeping a lot. have reduced meds. my brain is not lear on what to say all days seem the same, nothing seems to become any clearer  i just do not know what it is that i want to do anymore, wife leaves things on the calednar and well who the hell looks at it not me. I cannot remmmeber one moment to the next. my sense of humor is also leaving. You know i get upset and then am told to calm down and what i did or said is wrong. pisses me off. I feel like just not talking anymore, hell things do not come out right and then i get those looks, you know them you have given them yourselevs me too. I am starting to feel that this is my fault, although it isnot. It is just hell inside this mind of mine and growing worse by the day. With those of us out here telling, yelling, being gentle, when the fuck do we get heard. screw the rich and famous most of us are regular folks and our stories are important, i think but mainstream does not even those orgs that are supporedlly their for us.

take care and be good to yourself.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Monday, March 12, 2012

Care Givers Listings

I have added a resource list for caregivers and nursing home guides. To help those of you who take care of us get help and share your stories with others. Hope you find this helpful. All of the slistings come from emails i received going back over a year or more, so I am slow at getting things done. I still have others to go over before I list when I next remember.  Enjoy.

I think i got the links correct, i know you all willl let me know if not.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Thursday, March 8, 2012

GOD'S SENSE OF HUMOR

I got the following from a friend you all know i enjoy all forms of humor, I live with me that explains it.

While creating women, God promised men, that good and obedient wives would be found in all corners of the World.


And the HE made the earth round.


I have added some names to my In Memory Of page. I only have the names and dates they were set free, no pictures. I will add anyone's name to this list that you send me that past from any form of dementia. Pictures are nice, but any way we can remember these folks is great.


I am still looking for myself, i just keep missing me. Yesterday for the first time that i can remember Lynn yelled at me. I have to say it schocked me and made me sad. I guess I was taking to long to answer a question and kep on taling about other things and her frustration with me jsust blosommed like a flower. Oh well now it begins.


God Bless,
joe

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

I'm Back!

Back from where who the heck knows.  By the way if you want to cotact me or Lynn directly just email us at:
joynn1@cox.net  make sure you put in the subject line eitehr my name or Lynn's so the right person gets it.

If  any of you out ther suffer from this damn disease and have nowhere to post what you want to say, email me with a post and if it meets our extreeeeemly high standards I will send you back an invite to be a guess bloggger on this site.  Rules: simply total honesty, correct speling not an option, be ready to catch flack from rest of this World family if you get out of line; if your postings are inappropriate I will remove your privilidges.

Posts must relate to any form of DEMENTIA or your direct care of one with Dementia.

my computer is now bakc and running, maybe i will be to.

God Bless,
joe

Friday, December 30, 2011

Strangers in the Midst.

I have done my veyt best to fight this disease with all the mental strenght that I have had. I have allowed it to take its tolll on me physically because my mind was more important and is who anaad what I am. Well itt has marched on and I have not, it is to the point I look at those in my house and wonder who they are. I know I sould know them but I do not. I pretend to be in touch but well Mr. Alzheimer's has taken over and made him serlf at home. I rarely hear from any friends or see them, I hardly hear from any of you anylonger. There once was a time the commentss and emails were difficult to keep up with, now the emptiness of that is setting in. I know everyoe has their proble,s and life to live, but the anger that this disease hels to raise, while not really justified, it happens and and this world of mine has grown smaller, colder, darker and emptier and really not worth being here, I pray and even beg to be taken, but it is in his time. I have nothing more to offer or give and do not know why i am here.
Well i am loooosing my train of thought so take care of yourselves.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours! (Amd je Rest pf upi as We;;)
joe

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

My Life and Times With Alzheimer's.

I havenot posted is sometime. I have not been around for sometime. My brain has been on Jupiter and I on Pluto. Last few weeks have been very trying and uncomfortable for me.  I am not used to being sick alot, but I guess I have no choice in the matter. Also  have become more i guess you would say going in different directions while triing to go forward. Things are finally catching up.  I am getting more and more losst in each day, for get talking to people that is becomin a chore. I still can come here and tell you how shitty it is getting.Iknow that we hada howuse full on Thanks Giving and I have been not with it since then at least. We are dog sitting or I guess we are seeing if we will be keeeping my one daughters dog for a whilce since the are moving. Just another thing to get under foot. So far thisis becomming a rather crappy holiday season, and it is nobodies fault. It is just my constant companion Alzheimer's moving in the heavier furniture for its final push however long that may take.

To my friends in Israel, you asked for my father and mother's names well real hard on the father, Joseph, my moms name was Muriel.  Both have been gone for sometime, my mom over38 years and my day close to23 years. I have been very touch lately by those in other countries that have written me and I am glad that they are part of this family of ours.

I want you to know that Yolanda Sanmartino who was in the HBO Documentary is still alive and with us and of course me. We are the only tow left from Memory The Loss Tapes, and at least two of those fetured in the Caregiver part have past. Friends keep me posted. Out of 10 people seen and spoken of in the documentary only two of us are left that I am aware of. This show was done in 2008 and released in 2009 mid year. So in that short period of time 3½ years, eight have passed and most all in the 8 year or less time span. I keep being told how this disease affects people dirrerntly and I am aware of that but it still claims us when it has finished us. But what sweet freedom afterwards.

Everyone says that there is nothing good about Alzheimer's or other forms of dementia, wellI am here to tell you that it has put me at peace about dieing and that is good, it also is starting to rid me of not only good memories but many of the ones that causea great deal of pain and let me tell you that is good.

Well my head is staring to wander and hurt, take care till next time.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Thanks for the Memories ( Bob Hope)

thank you for the birthdaay wishes they were much appreciated. See how sneaky my wife is.
To Karen & Kathy, sorry I lost your orders in my mess. Books are going out tomorrow.
See and you all thought I had my head screwed on right, wrong.
Life is getting more confusing and so am i. Have a Happy Thanks Giving you and yours.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Thursday, October 27, 2011

I have Alzheimer's and need to have fun with it or sit and cry.

Those of you who care for us with Alzheimer's konw how difficult we can be . We can get damn angery and quiet uncontrollable at times. I know I can get really confrontaitional to the point of physical violence and those around me knwo when to back away quickly and let me be. This is not really funny at all but I have to show you a video my daughter took of my getting out of hand.  Before Viewing You may want to go down on the right and turn off the music. As you can see they keep me well under control.
to get the full affect of this you will need your speakers turned up.
Again I am not making fun of this part of the disease but am trying to handle it in a funny sort of manner, be pissed, angry or upset with me, I have to deal with this.  As physically I am moving quickly to the later stages, my mind is starting to follow to fast but i will laugh as long as i can.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

New Drug Target For Alzheimer's, Stroke Is Discovered


From Alzheimer's Disease Research

October 17, 2011
University at Buffalo scientists have discovered a tiny piece of a critical receptor that fuels the brain as a promising new drug target for Alzheimer's and other neurodegenerative diseases.
"This is the first time that this site has been shown to be useful as a drug target," says Gabriela K. Popescu, Ph.D., associate professor of biochemistry in UB's School of Medicine and Biomedical Sciences and senior author on the study. The research on the NMDA (N-methyl-D-aspartate) receptor was published online October 11 in Nature Communications.
"If we could find a drug that attaches itself to this site and locks together NMDA receptor subunits, that would be huge for fighting disability from stroke, Alzheimer's, and other neurodegenerative diseases," Popescu said.
The research focuses on the brain's receptors for the neurotransmitter, glutamate, which is implicated in these diseases as well as in other conditions, such as glaucoma. The two main glutamate receptors in the brain are NMDA and AMPA receptors, both of which play critical roles in human learning and memory. Both types of receptors are made of four subunits and within each receptor these subunits are organized in pairs called dimers.
Because these receptors are similar in structure, scientists had assumed that they function in much the same way.
"But when we altered the dimer interface, the site where two subunits come together within each pair, we found that the NMDA receptor works just the opposite of the way that the AMPA receptor works," Popescu said. "Cementing this interface in AMPA receptors leads to more activity, whereas we found just the opposite to be true in NMDA receptors."
By locking the subunits together, the UB researchers were able to achieve a marked reduction in NMDA activity and, subsequently, a marked reduction in the amount of calcium that enters neurons in response to the neurotransmitter glutamate. Calcium overload due to overactive NMDA receptors is what eventually kills off neurons, Popescu said, leading to the symptoms that occur after a stroke, and in Alzheimer's and other neurodegenerative diseases.
"The fact that by cross-linking the subunits, we could so dramatically reduce NMDA receptor activation demonstrates, for the first time, the tantalizing possibility that we may be able to develop new therapies that can much more effectively treat, or even one day prevent, some of these devastating diseases, like Alzheimer's and stroke," Popescu says.
And, because each type of NMDA receptor has a slightly different dimer interface, Popescu says, this finding represents a new opportunity for rationally designing drugs that would preferentially inhibit only a select population of NMDA receptors in the brain, thus reducing the possibility of side effects.
Currently, the Alzheimer's drug called Namenda, one of the only existing pharmaceuticals that inhibit the NMDA receptor, targets a different site within the receptor.
"If a new drug could be developed to target the dimer interface, which we discovered to be inhibitory, it would allow more specific effects than current drugs," Popescu said. "That's because at this particular interface, the interactions between these subunit interfaces are more precise than those currently being targeted."

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Monday, October 3, 2011

What do they know about Alzheimer's really?

I was reading best I coudl an artickle in AARP to day called: Diagnosing Alzheimer's by Katharine Greider. Interesting a lot about nothing, they know they have no tests or real meds to help us, gosh what a fricken surprise.  A Quote; "But scientists don't yet understand exactly what various results of biomarker tests mean for each patient or how they can be used to predict a patient's future. (i typed this from the article.)" Eli Lilly has a drugg Amyvid which is an injectible radioactive dye to stain amyloid deposits for use in PET Scans which may help.  quote from article: "The drugmaker says Amyvid would be for old people with mental decline wose diagnosis is uncertain." you judge that one. This is the best part of the article and only part that is truly reaal in my opinion.
"It will likely be many years before any test can predict precisely who really with get the disease, and when," says Frances, who has helped establish guidelines to iagnose mental disorders. "In the meantime, there will be lots of continued hype about progress in testing," hes says. "The best thing mos people can do is simply ignore it. Instead of worrying about Alzheimer's you should make sure to exercise you mind and body, eat well, don't drink too much, and enjoy life."

Exactly waht my neuroligist a number of years ago said to me, except she said dump the meds they are not going to stop anything. Keeep my shrink so he coulc give me the mental calming drugs and mode stabilizers I would need. And enjoy the time I had left.

Now to those who keep telling me just because you forget placing your glasses, keys, appointments, pens, etc. does not mean you have Alzheimer's. CORRECT, but when you do all these things daily, you have a fricken problem, bub.

I am now entering year 7 and the physciall parts are taking hold, no balance, bladder wants to be on self control, forgetting my meds, needing to hold the walls to walk, back brace so I am not in pain, meds increased to help with symptoms, may even have my ow Scooter Chair soon to I can go shopping and not die in the middle of the store, because I am in pain cannot walk, people just need to disapear, sweating getting confused (some fun). I truly hate it when people tell me hang in there it will be ok. Fuck it will not be ok I am dieing. That is ok, this is just not the way i planned things.

Well till next time take care of yourselves.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Monday, September 26, 2011

Dr. Joseph Sivak's New Blog

I think I promised to list this. It is on my resource link now. You can click the title of this post and go there. I must first warn you as usual my frind Dr. Sivak, does not know how to keep things short. Well he is a phsch, but a nice person. Since he has one blob I Hate Alzheimer's and of course an auother I guess he thinks he need another blog, I guess it helps him, LORD knows he needs it.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Update on Tests - more doctor appointments.

Well after flunking my 2 hour glucose test with colors, we now have more blood tests we are waiting on, seems Alzheimer's and Frontal Temporal Dementia are not enough to have. We alll konw i cannot spell. have lost many brain cells. I am Bi Polar, I have toooooo much body, now I have Type II Diabetes, Yeah team more fricken meds. The Sleep DR. that did my sleep tests, has me scheduled for pulmenary tests thinks I might have COPD yeah, I will live to be 112 now, thanks a lot. You will love this, I have a motorized cushion to help get my well developed body off the couch into a standing position, yes modern technology to my aid. Still working on the wife to put an elevator in but boy she is stubborn.

I get brain fades now, use to call them brain farts, but then they only lasted a few seconds, these last longer thanb I can remember having them. I was fitted for a back brace to day because I have shrunk almost to grasshopper hieght, have spinal spinousious or something along those lines. The Golden Years that is what they call this, well I am on a hunt for the person that came up with that phrase, I intened to Golden Years all over that person.

At least I have all my body parts, some do not work right, but they are still there. Have all my own teeeth, ok some have crowns, but underneath the construction it is my tooth. I am lucky i still have my sense of humor good or bad (mostly bad) and still can talk with you my family. There are many with Alzheimer's and other forms of dementia that cannot or will not speak out, and that is ok. Because all of us with this disease will be set free each in our own time from this life. I for one can hardly wait.

Well you all be good, if not just do not name it after me.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

PS Pray for all those who are out there putting their lives on the line for all of us all over this World.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

What AAAAAAAHHHH RUUUUUSSSSHHH

Yesterday when I was younger, i wnt and had a large amount of blood taken for tests. Now I am a child of the night seeking out dinner.  I had a two hour glucose toleratnce test, WOW.  I was hungry as hell then they gave me the water to drink, filled with what tasted like sugar, but I am not sure what was in it. Well now I felt fine, they drew my blood at one hour and the world was ok, at the seceond and final hour the world was a bit different. I felt like i was as drunk as a skunk I could not walk without help. Funny how the floors and walls move by themselves. I truly was wasted have not felt like that in decades, nor do I want to again. Should get results within the week. Had to wait until today to catch you all up, yesterday just was a RUSH all day, no one wanted to leave me but everyone had to go somewhere, I ate alot and slept and by late evening I was in better shape. Today is ok, i just hurt all over, feel like i was used as a punching bag, i am big enoungh and well stuffed.

I still wonder why this disease is not working the same with me as others, it seems all the physical parts are rapidly come down, but although not fully functional, my brain seems to be somewhat alive. I do have problems doing complicated things, this is one of them, but there are times that things seem crystal clear, then they go to hell in a hand basket. Really drives me nuts. But Lynn in her loving and gentle way reminded me today that I never do anything the way I am suppose to. Marriage what a wonderful thing. Try it you may like it, I tried three times, until I was taught how to behave myself.

Stay well and take care of yourselves.  Love You All!

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Our Day of Rememberance.

I think the world knows what took place this day and I do not need to tell you.  What has gotten me of late are the emails telling me to Remember The Flag. To fly it today. See these are the folks that go to church on the holidays only.  I am an American, my Flag flies 365 days a year day and night (it is lit for the night). I have flown the Flag for over 20+ years on my home. This is my heritage the 200+ years of this Country. I pray for all those who put their lives on the line daily for all of us World Wide so we can live free.

Enough of the soap box, my days have been crapy lately, i am getting fitted for mobility movers so I can go out with the family. Also to help get my fat ass off the couch, you know a cushion that liftss you up gentteling and puts you in a standing position. Yes my mind still for some reason still works, but the physical parts of Alzheimrer's are rapiddlly taking over. Brain wanders a lot. For the most part I stay in, sleep at the drop of a hat, watch my fish clean their ponds, which just wears me out. Still get lost in the days though. Just like trying to post here, i sit down and just starrte at the screen and forget what the hell i am doing here. Oh well at least i still remember to breathe.

You all bne good to yourselves and stay well.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

PS the blessing includes all of you World Wide. I Forgot Dr. Sivak has a new blog when i find the emails i will post it.