God's Gift To Me - I Share With You!

In this world that i now live in has very few gifts in it, mostly all crud. Many of you know about my KOI pond and all the pain in building it and loooosing my two prize KOI, so you think of all the crap and hoow your life is leaving quickly.
Yesterday we had to tear the pond apart and give it a complete cleaning and water change and redo plants and trimig of plants and all the pain in the buttt things it takes to get this done. I do not move quickly so it takes quite awhile to get things done. Well as things would be we took the waterfall apart and in the lower seperate pond to the main in among the Parrott Feather was a poor little hummingbird just water logged. Poor thing must have wieghed at least twoo hundred pounds with the water. It jumped on the ledge then to the ground, I put my hand down, here is the gift I got and share with you:

This little buddy, just jumped up onto my hand and sat there. Every so offten he fluttered his wings trying to dry off and held my finger tightly with its' tiny little feet. He stayed with me for about ten minutes, while he dried out and then finally got enough lift went stod still for a second and as he looked and took off you kind of hear him squeak and left like a missle.  Enjoy as I did. 

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Getting SStuck In time.

I am becomming more confused eac day. I sit here to write and just draw a complete blank. I feel that thi journey is getting rather rocky and bumpy now. When i started this blog, which seems like centuries to me, i was filled with a fire and a passion that was overwhelming me. You all know how i feel that we who suffer from Alzheimer's, Lewy Bodies, Parkinsons, Frontal Temproal Dementia, Vascular, etc. do no have a voice for us, i still feel that way, i do not want some so called expert, caregiver, reasearcher, etc. speaking for me and telling how terrrible this is and the problems and heartbreat they feel caring for us. Hell that does not put a voice or a face to us, to u yes, us no. Like it or not, WE hold the key to this disease. We have the answer, not you, we live it, why are we not asked, why are we not the experts, why is it not us that talks to the media and the big stars to tell the story? You do not know this side at all.  When it started for me it was small slices of my life taken each day, those slices have grown steadily until they are now steak size. The passion is still there to tell the story, but the fire is just a glow now. I feel like i am talking to me on my left side, i am deaf in my left ear, i feel like my blog has lost it's thunder and no longer reaches out and is heard. Yes i hear from folks once and awhile but not much anymore, I cannot begin to tell you how lonely it is inside my mind what is left now. I cannot realy even talk about things much anymore. Hell the fire and fuck the world attitude  has tempered down, I am understanding how the others that were in the hbo documentaroy felt and relate lmore to the world they became to know.
My niece died thursday, she was in her forties, i feel for her husband and three sons, but more for her mother and father, see we are to die before our children not out live them.
This is becomming way to much, there are things i want to do, but i forget them or just plain have no motivation to do them. I rarely sit by my ponds any more, my interests seem to becoming less daily about anything.
Well until i remember you are out there again take care of yourselves.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!
joe

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New Findings - Interesting Support The Cause!!!

Bulletin from the cause: Support Alzheimer's Research Go to Cause Posted By: Fisher Center To: Members in Support Alzheimer's Research Significant Finding in Nine Months by Fisher Scientists Scientists at the Fisher Center for Alzheimer's Disease Research at The Rockefeller University, led by Paul Greengard, Ph.D., and Jennifer Warner-Schmidt, Ph.D., have shown that anti-inflammatory drugs, which include ibuprofen, aspirin and naproxen, reduce the effectiveness of the most widely used class of antidepressant medications, theselective serotonin reuptake inhibitors, or SSRIs, taken for depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder and anxiety disorders. This surprising discovery, published online this week in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences, may explain why so many depressed patients taking SSRIs do not respond to antidepressant treatment and suggests that this lack of effectiveness may be preventable. The study may be especially significant in the case of Alzheimer's disease. Such patients commonly suffer from depression and unless this can be treated successfully, the course of the illness is likely to be more severe. Depression in the elderly is also a risk factor for developing Alzheimer's disease and researchers have suggested that treating depression in the elderly might reduce the risk of developing the disease. LEARN MORE: http://www.alzinfo.org/04/articles/fisher-center-scientists-show-anti-inflammatory-drugs-reduce-effectiveness-ssri-antidepressants Call to Action Support the cause. Be counted: I Read This

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!!
joe

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It Is May

Just in case you wer not aware it is May. I know the calendar and my computer tell me so and they would not lie to me. Well maybe they would cannot trust them buggers.  At least my brain doesn't, it really does not anylonger link days weeks or months together, let alone years.

According to the wife I have developed my own language, not heard on this Earth is billions of years. It seems that when I cannot get out what I want to say, let alone remembber what it is, I express myself in sort of a babble type lanugaggge. She seems to understand me, I sure the hell don't, I wonder who has the problem. Her or me?  Since she can remember days, what to do and what she is talking about, she has the problem, those type of people do not live in my World. What the title has to do with this is beyond my mind. Sounded good.

Well we got some new young koi, will see how they do. I have to do water changes on the ponds, and I do not want to, it is such a pain in the ass. I guess the fishes like it, but not one has given me a fin to shake and say thank you.  They remind me of gov. officials take it, shove it up my butt and not even a kiss. Yes I am in a mood today, have been for awhile, never kno when they will come or go, seem to stay alot longer these days.

Take care, who knows i MAY see you soon.  There that is why the title. If you believe that your brain is as blue as mine is.

God Bless & Keep You & This Country of Ours!!
joe

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Without Further Ado & Much Fanfare!

First thanks to all you who offered their prayers for my friends Mary & Jim. I spoke to Mary via Skype today and so far so good. Again Thank you!

A Drum roll if you please!!!!!!!!!!

The old pond area, waterfall removed and relandscaped, not by me others in the house. Will be used for water plants and raising up our baby Koi that are due soon. First I have to get a male to help the preganant one.
I know you all have been waiting for the new area. Well except for getting the lighting all correct and wiring finished here it is.

Thanks for waiting and asking for the pictures, my hide away is near complete. In case you are wondering, which you have to be, where did the othjer water fall go. Well it now graces the front of the house. We also have an ornamental type pond out there.

Thank you all for beign out there for me. It is much appreciated. Now the brain is fried for the day after trying to place these pictures where they did not want to go. Thanks again!

God Bless You and This Country of Ours!

joe

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